Players

All of us play parts at different times throughout our relationships. Often times, the beginning of a relationship is largely a series of false, controlled impressions designed to achieve a desired result: attract the other person. It's no wonder that so many relationships fail after a period of time. Funny enough, many of us have no interest in the "real" person initially. We all have expectations that we project onto others. Everyone is afraid to be themselves. 

Insecurities

History, paranoia, our own weaknesses and transgressions form our insecurities. "The thief never trusts anyone else" applies. I've often wondered why people are so insecure in their relationships. Maybe for good reason. But I wonder, do they manifest that which they fear most. People who fear infidelity - do they drive their partner to that? In that case, both parties have culpability.

Can't decide

There are women I have slept with in the past and every now and then I have a craving for them. It's really strange I think. It's like craving a certain cuisine or being "in the mood for..."

Yes, I'm comparing women to food. There's much in common between the two :) You can figure that out for yourself.

When did things change

It happens so slowly. It's almost as if it happened over night. We change. Our feelings change. Then it's a downward spiral. If only we could know in advance, but then again we may never take chances. I'm always shocked when people divorce. Even when I kinda knew it would happen. They go from being so into each other to hating one another.

We're really fickle I think. I love someone one day, the next day, I'm done with them. It only seems that way. What really happened is the slow erosion of trust through singular and often times small actions.

Fear forces our hand

I wonder if I would have ended up settling into a relationship had I not endeavored to learn how to date. It makes me question the circumstances by which others have fallen into their relationships.

Recently, I was discussing my exploits with someone who seemed amazed. I was struck by the fact that this guy is super successful and confident and he seemed like a good guy. Yet, he admitted his own fear and insecurities around interacting with women.

It mad me wonder. Do we just grab what we find and hold onto it without question or is that just a better way?

Be Blunt

Never be afraid. Swing for the fences. Rock the boat. 

It is true. When I don't care, I say what I really feel, without fear of repercussion, it usually turns out better. Not necessarily good, but better. Being a chameleon, changing to meet the needs of others is never a great thing. To quote someone who quoted someone else, "I don't know the secret to success, but I do know the key to failure: trying to please everyone."

The difference

I made her leave after I was done because there was no reason for her to stay. Made me think. Made me wonder. Per my previous post, if all p---y is the same, then what makes me constantly want another woman?